Trina's tips

I am still in the thick of looking for a job. I know that the process is going pretty well because I have had the opportunity to go one three first interviews and one second interview. I am trying to use this "free" time to improve upon myself by reading books on how to improve my career, cleaning up the house, and working on my fitness. I guess there are still things to accomplish around here and that's why I haven't been offered anything....

Today was so pretty. It was nice to spend time chilling out with my family and enjoying the sunshine. The food was good, the company was nice, and the weather was hot but there was still a breeze. Now it is back to the grind of applying for and interviewing for jobs and..... SATC day is Friday :-)

Since I have began this process of planning our wedding, I have been doing a lot of research. Looking at wedding books and magazines, I come across the phrase "Perfect Wedding" all too often. I think that the idea of a perfect anything is absolutely ridiculous. This is why women turn into super bitchy bridezillas. They have the expectation that everyone and everything surrounding "their" day will be so perfect. I try to keep it real with myself. This is our wedding, not my friends or family. Yes, I know they are happy for us and are willing to help but their lives continue to go on. And really ours do to. I can't drop everything to plan a one day event. I have to actually do other stuff! I think it's wonderful that my friends are helping me out when I ask them to. I love that they bring ideas to the table. Do I expect them to be my bridal slaves? NO. Do I expect them to think every detail is interesting. NO. And that's fine. Sometimes the details bore me...

And I am awake. Why?

The ease of getting dressed. Just throw on a dress or a tank top and shorts and flip flops. The sunshine with a slight breeze. Flowers blooming in all kind of colors. Andy sunbathing until he's literally a hot dog! The strawberries in my garden becoming ripe. Fresh tomatoes with dinner, sprinkled with salt and pepper and just a bit of mayo. So yummy! Grilling dinner for my sweetie. How good the AC feels in the car or the house after being outside.

I feel very "in the middle" right now. I am in the middle of getting the house organized and ready for my fiance and all of his things. I am in the middle of my process of job hunting. I am also in the middle of figuring out what my next career move will be. I want to do something different but at the same time I have to get something to pay the bills. The best I can come up with right now is to work on my dream part time until I can make a living out of it.

I am obsessed with magazines (last week I was in the store looking for one that I haven't read or purchased and I could not find one out of the 12 or so I read). I have recently developed a love for asparagus. I make up songs about my dog. I really want to have my own business doing scrapbooks, making cards, and other creative things. I like to garden. I think it's a nice, peaceful feeling to play in the dirt. I go to Target at least once every week. I think pink is a great color :-) I can make a meal out of bread.

It feels good. It's like with every piece of junk I get rid of I can breathe just a little bit easier. Today I am working on everything that I have downstairs in my storage closet, living room, and kitchen pantry. Tomorrow I will tackle the upstairs spare room and my bedroom. This is just one way that I am making the most out of my time as I wait for God to bring me my next job. After I get my house (literally) in order then it's time to re-focus on my body. I have turned to comfort food in the last two weeks and gotten away from healthy eating and activity. Alrighty, back to my tasks.... ttyl :-)

I have decided to stop being bitter about what happened to me. I am not going to cry about it any more. It's not worth it. It just isn't. I realized that it really did happen for a reason. I am not sure how long it will be before the next opportunity comes along for me. But when it does come along it should be great. CORRECTION: It WILL be great!!! (thanks Keika :-) )

I guess the first task at hand is to physically clean house! I have to make room for my fiance and all of his things so that I won't loose my mind when he gets here in a few weeks. I think that a clean and organized surrounding can lead to more clear thinking. So here I go.... it's going to take a while.

I am trying to get through this sudden change in my life and cope with it the best way I know how. At times I get really sad and I just want to cry. Sometimes I get livid and want to break things. And then there are those rare moments when I realize that I can take the opportunity to rest, re-focus, and change some things about myself and my life. Each day I know it will get a little bit better, until I get that new exciting job offer and things really start to look up.

So, I am trying to make the change over to a more green lifestyle. To start with I already have energy effecient light bulbs all over my house. I am gettting back into recycling at home and the office. I try to eat organic when possible. And I am switching to all organic body care products. A few favorites: I also like Jason Natural and Organic unscented body wash and Toms of Maine toothpaste. Method makes good housecleaning products and so does seventh generation.